Maya Blomstrom , I wish I could find the words to explain how I am feeling . life just won’t be the same without you . I just don’t understand what happened boo . You were fine last night and this morning . I wish I never left you . I just didn’t expect you to pass . But as long as you felt no pain , I guess that makes it better . Maya , just know that I love you so much . You honestly were my bestfriend. I know you were a dog , not a human . But it doesn’t matter . You knew what to do do piss me off , make me smile , wake me up , and make me laugh . You mean so much . And John loves you . And I know you know that . Baby , I can’t seem to come to terms with what has happened . I’m glad I found you though. I was the first one to hold you , and I was also the last . Holding you in my arms today was so hard . But you’re my baby . You always will be . No dog will ever take your place . When you didn’t respond to cpr , I felt like my world came crashing down . You always had my back and watched out for me . And you always cuddled with me and sat by the door when I left . From the moment I first held you , we had a connection , and I couldn’t ask for anything more . Now I know you’re with Nana and I’m glad , but can you please watch after Matthew? He loved you very much you were his sister and his bestfriend . He’s very sick , and I want him to live . I know you’re watching him because he’s been eating which is great . I can’t lose you and him . and neither can mommy . I need you to know that I would have done anything to have saved you . Holding you in my arms today , like a baby , was the lowest point in my life . You will always have my heart . And you’ll always be my best friend . keep mommy , me John , and Matthew all safe . You were perfect. I’ll miss you all of my days . I’d do anything to feel your kisses or give you a cookie . But I know I’ll see you soon babygirl . And if someone did this to you and Matthew , please show me a sign . It’s not okay . Sweet dreams . Ill write you everyday . I love you and I miss you Maya . Forever my family and bestfriend . Rest in paradise <3

I don’t understand what’s so hard about saying bye before you don’t text me for 2 hours ?! Oh and then during that 2 hours , you’ve hung out with girls . Hahah , idc if you stood 60 feet away or not . You still did it. Oh , and I had to find out on twitter . Not from you .. someone else . Wow that makes me feel awesome .